I am posting this writing written by Ann Downing a member of Calvary Life Family Worship Center, Cheshire, CT, with her permission. This Sunday at our church service my husband who is the senior pastor, ministered a message titled “Leadership Dance”. After the service Ann came to me to share how she had been raised in a very legalistic church and for her it wasn’t very fostering of a personal relationship with God. She writes of an experience – the vision she got while sitting in a room with Christian friends, which was all very new to her. She explains; this vision not guided by her at all. It wasn’t some fantasy she had. It was a special experience to her. She wanted to get it all down in writing so that she could share it, especially with her two sons. I asked her if she would email it to me so I could read it. Well it is so amazing and inspiring; that I believe it should be shared with others.
MY DANCE WITH JESUS
We were sitting with friends one evening,
all of us closing our eyes.
Everyone was invited to look for Jesus,
to open our hearts and our minds.
This approach to Jesus was new to me;
my prayer life had never been so personal.
Suddenly, I found myself
in a clearing,
in a forest
with Jesus.
Just Jesus and me.
We began dancing and running around
in the clearing.
His eyes never left me
and their warmth reached and held me.
He wanted me there, with Him,
to dance
in the clearing.
I saw something blue, a beautiful bird
that flew across the clearing.
I was distracted and I chased it
into the forest,
leaving Jesus alone
in the clearing.
And then I remembered that Jesus was waiting
for me.
I ran back to the clearing, expecting His anger,
but found Him smiling at me.
He held out His hand
to draw me to Him.
Eagerly, I returned, back to His side,
smiling at Him, feeling relief at His grace
towards me and
my choice for distraction.
And then we danced some more
in the clearing.
It was wonderful to be there and alone with Jesus;
I had His full attention.
The sun was warm and the day,
perfection.
And then I saw a sweet little bunny
running across the clearing.
It looked so endearing
that I wanted to touch it
and I ran,
and left Jesus,
alone in the clearing.
Again, I remembered that Jesus was waiting
for me.
I worried, and ran, expecting a scolding.
Cautiously, I entered back into the clearing,
feeling guilty and anguished inside.
But His smile never faded
and His warm eyes never cooled,
and He beckoned to me
to come back to Him
to dance with Him
in our clearing.
I was struck by His grace,
it was so unexpected,
and His love,
it was so unmatched.
We laughed and we danced alone
in our clearing.
My heart felt so warm and I felt such love
from Him,
for me.
I was so happy for this unimagined dance
with Jesus,
in our clearing.
And as the notes on the guitar
brought me back to the room
where we were invited to look for Jesus,
I opened my eyes
to find a friend looking at me.
With warmth in her smile, she said softly, to me,
“You looked so beautiful, there,
with Jesus.”
I look back, now, when I remember
my dance with Jesus
and am warmly touched
by His love and His grace.
For, at times I forget that He forgives me
for my choices
and my distractions.
Thank you, dear Jesus, for dancing
with me
alone, that day
in our clearing.
~ Ann L. Downing
January 19, 2004